hhmm, wat should i talk, well life in camps was fun lah though it's tiring due to exercise and all... tend to sleep early too like 8 plus gitu dah start ngantok and slowly head to bed lah.. i'm not going to details the part of camp though bcoz sesiapa dah masuk tau apa rasa nya... as for those who wants to know, well ur turn will come.. until then will u know how it feels lah.. as of thursday 17 jan 2008, things happen and really happen... i'm still holdig on to it though... for this and the fact tat i still entertain u, istill giving u chance and stil wanting u back... bt it seems so tat u ain't doing anything due to ur confusion and stuff... like i've said to u, sacrifice is all tat matter.. and antara u nk and tk nk jek, it's not a matter of u can do or u can't.... ni semua alasan just to escape frm reality... sinc everyone has learn tat for one to succeed, he or she must do her best and dn give up till the end... and also we know too tat we can do it if we want to, so tat's where the "antara nk ngan tak nak" comes in.... get it people... i know things like this will happen bt for u to love me still and not knowing wat to do is crap lah.... u want this and tat, how is tat possible... u will hve to choose... it's like wasted lawa2 mcm gini tapi prangai u know wat lah... for all i know, wat i'd do and no matter how much hints i give and watever things i've been doing to get u to comprehand tat i want to be wit u, u would want to get back to me... mmg u can say u scared and stuff, bt listen to ur heart and reflect to wat u have done... wat u really want is not just me bt everyone else... u want me for the sake of my love for u and u want others for the sake of u cannot keep to one and the feelings tat u hv developed for the others... well i can't deny the fact tat though u like tat i still accepted u, bt have u ever wonder why... bcoz i do really love u and i've always wanted u to stop fooling around and stuff... the thing is, when i was with u, i do know u love me bt u ain't into me yet.. for tat i tried very hard liao.. and all ways and means for u to be into me.. bt i didn't give up.. and by nw u should know who have given up... i don't know lah nothing i say will bring us back together again lah bt i really hope for the best lah which is u coming back and wake up ur senses... how long do u think u can do this sht, sooner or later u will still be someones wife... after all we've been through tak kan u tak bleh handle sei... i ain't going to continue lah, got some shopping to do before booking in back
just so u know i'm still here k, bt i've told u before the longer u prolong the wait the harder it will be for us to get back... and by now i hope u faham sikit lah wat u should do... before i tutup buku, i just hope u make the rite decision... ppeople might say wat's done can't be undone, bt for wat i know tat is for majority general sense... if u were to look it in a diff manner, some things can be undone....
for all i know nw, i still do love u very much, and as of nw it's still very hard for me to let u go... i just hope a miracle and anything nice to happen nw...
ps: i really want us to get back....